love

I am in LoVe

unconditional love

unconditional love, that what I am pursuing now. Alhamdulillah that I have met someone that can take me as I am. hopefully he stays forever in my life.

hi

Buat ‘teman baruku’ silakan baca posting yang judulnya me and endometriosis ya say, dan juga baca komennya.

Love you.

what’s your ideology

Learning about ideology is important for everyone, especially for the young people as potential agent of change. there will be a time when they will replace the older generation, the crucial time as they need to make a lot of public policies requiring serious and deep thought.

ideology enables people to think clearly and in argumentative way instead of talking emotionally. think of demonstrants who never learn about any ideology, chances are they will end up with blank slogan which only them and God know the hidden meaning. so let them talk two.

i wonder why we dont educate ourselves and our young people with ideology. it can fight againts narrow mindness, ignorance or even hedonism because there you can find philosophical thought which makes people become more mature.

soe hok Gie

Soe Hok Gie
after reading the book titled “soe hok gie sekali lagi” i found out that I have been such a spoiled woman though I am the independent one. hmm the word ‘independent’ now clearly reveals that my world is just spinning in one axis only that is my central ego. it is true that I am independent but that is only for fulfilling my needs. only once in a while that my mind thinks of somebody else, except my fam.

compared to the young restless intelectual Hok-Gie, I feel ashamed of my deliberate ignorance toward my people.

I mean, I am also intellectual, I am part of the few selected people who can have education at university, yet, all I have done only caring about my future life, carreer and such money savings.
cannot I just lend my mind to think of others?

and here comes the book, thank you for enlightening my life, never too late to change and to ponder before saying goodbye to this worldly life.

What I should Learn from MJ

though it may be late to write about the death of the King of Pop, I still want to share what I should learn from him.

as seen from the sincere and deep condolences that his fans show in the funeral ceremony, Michael trully is a person who has transferred love; the ultimate positive energy to many people in the world.  He ain’t my brother nor my acquintance but when he left, my heart sank quite deeply. that my friend, is more than because of the magic of his songs but his very honesty and sincerity touch our heart from the very inside.

he shares the good things of his life.

that’s what I should learn from him. He shares the good things in his life.

and I do believe everyone of us could do the same. we dont have to be as billionaire as he is, just see around and try to not hurting people in your surrounding by the small things of yours; body language, words, even mind.

MJ may be had never taught that he has been dearly loved by million of people.

his caring and compassion makes him more human.

HUJAN BULAN JUNI—SAPARDI D.DAMONO

Hujan Bulan Juni Sapardi Djoko Damono

 tak ada yang lebih tabah dari hujan bulan Juni dirahasiakannya rintik rindunya kepada pohon berbunga itu

 

tak ada yang lebih bijak dari hujan bulan Juni dihapusnya jejak-jejak kakinya yang ragu-ragu di jalan itu

tak ada yang lebih arif dari hujan bulan Juni dibiarkannya yang tak terucapkan diserap akar pohon bunga itu

 

eyang sapadi, pinjem puisinya yah untuk seseorang yang sudah duluan pulang, meninggalkan banyak airmata haru, rindu dan kebanggaan karena pernah memilki cintanya……….

For GOD Sake, NO OW pleaze

mind your body weight, I MEAN IT.

THINK OF THESE TWO FACTS:

our heart (jantung) should work much much harder as it should pump the blood circulating the entire parts which need it.

many illnesses really stem from your body weight. even it can give woman a mioma, well of course when it combined with bad life styles.

well, keeping your body in a pretty good shape will give u pretty benefits….

ME n Endometriosis

after sometimes that i have not written anything here then I come with the latest update of myself.

I have endometriosis with me.

what is that?

is a medical condition in which endometrial cell is deposited in areas outside the uterine cavity.  it causes pain a lot ,I can have a baby but, difficult.

the cause?

many theories surrounding this illness: alergic, reflux of the menarche blood, etc.

who can suffer from it?

any woman especially those who have not delivered baby after 30 years old.

lots of the patients are career women who delay their pregnancy ( God, You know, i did not delay anything here, am not just married yet…….:(……:)   )

well,

it’s big news for me, I know what I am facing here, I have read lots of articles about it and i am just preparing for everything in my life, which would not be the same any more, hm hm, never be the same.

recently i had excruciating painful, sometimes so hurt that I just want to lay down my body and not do anything. this illness might not kill me but somehow it can bound the internal organ of the body severely, and yup, that pain is really annoying.

then,

here comes tomato, the magic fruit that can slow down the growth of endometriosis. i consume it almost everyday, the juice without sugar. the pain is still there.

lately I decided to work out, i buy treadmill and give myself time to exercise. i can say amazingly the pain is gone now, and the tomato juice is still my best friend.

my doctor said: “you still can have baby with that”

the fact: endometriosis can gimme difficulties to bear any offspring.

so what I must do now actually is to find out what stadium of my illness is.

i raise my hands to you God, may you bless me with miracless and with the easy ways, amen

…………………………….. nothing for this moment

PALESTINE

PALESTINE, MY HEART FOR YOU, MY TEARS FOR YOU, AND MY PRAYER FOR YOU.

ALL HUMANS WITH YOU.

SELAMAT LEBARAN IDUL FITRI, EID MUBARRAK, MINAL AIDIN????????

Sebelumnya ane mau ngucapin EID MUBARRAK ke setiap saudara muslim yang insya Allah merayakan idul fitri hari ini tanggal 1 oktober 2008.  seperti biasa habis sholat eid, my fam and I went to Balai RW untuk salam2 an ama orang sekampung. lumayan pegel tapi seneng juga, alhamdl lancar.

 

seperti biasa juga, kalimat yang sering terucap adalah: mohon maaf lahir dan batin, minal aidzin wal faidzin.

saya jadi bertanya-tanya, sejak kapan minal aidzin wal faidzin berarti maaf lahir dan bathin. yah karena seringnya bersandingan jadi orang asosiasinya frase bahasa arab itu artinya mohon maaf lahir dan bathin. padahal ini kalau kagak salah ustadzku jaman dulu pernah bilang itu artinya dari golongan yang kembali dan dari golongan yang menang.

naah jangan2 kita semua menyangka minal aidin wal faidzin berarti minta maaf lahir bathin…..???/ hehehehe.

terus bilang apa dong kalu lebaran,  rasul SAW selalu bilang gini nih kalau lagi idl fitr:

taqobbalallaahu minna wa minkum ( boleh ditambah: shiyamanaa wa shiyamakum , sahabat rasul yang kadang menambahkan).

artinya? lebih kontekstual dengan idl fitr:

semoga Allah menerima (ibadah ) ku dan kalian ( dan semoga ALLAH menerima puasa ku dan kalian) .

wallaahu a’lam

 

 

laskar Pelangi : Ini novelnya

ok, after my struggle to get da dream ticket and da inspiring film that i watched, now let me share my Opinion about da novel.

setelah browsing sana-sini akhirnya dapat juga lah wajah laskar pelangi yang ‘asli’, asik juga fotonya ada dimuat METRO. emang benar ada 10 orang dan inilah nama asli sahabat bang andrea itu:

1. chandra prana

2. Syahdan wahyudi

3. Alpino

4. Iwan

5. Ahmad fajri

6. Andrea hirata

7. Hartati

8. Rojali

9. A Kiong aka Chau Cin Kiong

10…………………..

 

yang ke sepuluh gak tahu gak dapat data nama, the nine names were found in majalah TEMPO edisi september 2008, dari hasil wawancara dengan AMAN alias A KIONG. Istrinya yang bernama Saparina yang agaknya menjadi inspirasi Andrea untuk membuat karakter SAHARA (lih. TEMPO Sept 2008).

days ago i visited wikipedia dan dapatlah nama2 lengkap tokoh di novelnya. misalnya Lintang Samudra Basara bin Syahbani Maulana Basara, jadi yang di Wiki itu adalah nama tokoh Dalam novel. sementara nama ASLI  mereka para laskar yah itu tadi, hasil investigasi wartawan TEMPO.

tokoh yang bernama lintang itu sepertinya hanya andre yang tahu yang mana diantara ke sepuluh orang tersebut yang dimaksud dengan Lintang, as none of the 9 persons plus ibu Muslimah tahu yang mana yang dimaksud dengan tokoh Lintang.  jika memang tokoh lintang itu ada sayang sekali sampai semua isi kelas tidak ada yang ingat betapa besar jasa lintang untuk sekolah mereka seperti yang digambarkan dalam novel dan movienya bahwa he was a superb student from pesisir yang membuat tim mereka menang cerdas cermat. even ibu muslimah cannot remember which of the ten or nine students was meant as Lintang. well i am not talking bout the name but the perfomance of this genious kid should have not been forgotten easily right? esp because he was soooo special, genious like andre had told us many times.

i also agree that this novel likes to use bahasa yang hiperbola. mungkin untuk menciptakan efek dramatis  dan ‘mengesankan’, tapi akhirnya sorry to say, jadi agak ganjil.  beberapa kritikus menyebutkan ketika  mahar menyanyikan tennesse waltz dan ketika bu muslimah menyanjung lintang dengan kata2: “superb, anak pesisir, superb”, it was too  much. bahwa kemungkinan-kemungkinan penyanjungan oleh bu muslimah itu pastilah ada, mungkin redaksinya lebih membumi dengan bahasa yang mereka kenal juga, well this school was not bilingual school in terms of english-speaking school or france-speaking school so the teacher did not need to use any term of those foreign languages with all respect.

Bahwa antara karya sastra tertulis dan visual pasti berbeda itu sudah jamak terjadi dan public dont mind about that i guess, as indonesians had read and watched more. so they could accept the difference.

sejauh mana seorang penulis itu bisa membubuhkan  ‘improvisasi’ dalam memoar kisah nyatanya mungkin perlu diperjelas ke publik terutama bagi mereka yang ingin berbagi dan menjual kisah nyata hidupnya. kekhawatiran pribadi sebagai orang awam adalah jika penulis tersebut mencampur adukkan antara kisah nyata dan improvisasi pribadi (which is not real experience) then, dari sudut pandang seorang PEMBACA maka saya akan berakhir dengan keraguan apakah isi novel yang diklaim sebagai kisah nyata itu benar begitu adanya atau dibumbui. dengan kata lain i just dont know which one is the real story and which one is not.

dalam kasus novel laskar pelangi, terlepas dari keganjilan hiperbola yang dibuat oleh andrea ( karena andrea suka sekali dengan gaya bahasa ini), adalah ‘lupa’ nya atau lebih tepatnya “tidak tahunya” semua saksi dan pelaku laskar pelangi  terhadap tokoh lintang, that’s the key.

tapi yah, people say art is meant for art. if this novel is meant as an art product then just enjoy it.  selama itu bisa buat orang terinspirasi ya silahkan saja, cuman lebih baik kita menjual true story if IT IS  A REAL ONE.