FREEDOM WRITER

Just last night i watched this awesome movie. it is about a teacher who successfully abated racism and hatred among students, humanized them more and accepted differences in the world. it is about the “power” of daily journal that the students made every single day, pouring and sharing the bitter reality of their lifes.

writing a journal apparently could  be good tool to communicate between teachers and problematic students as they may find the book as a fair and trustworthy buddy. but for some people it is still a big hindrance for them espressing their thoughts on the paper, i used to also feel the same way. writing could never be easy for me coz i felt as if someone out there would laugh at me and my silly ideas. but as the time goes by, i understand that writing is brain activity, it activates ma brain though there is a theory saying that writing more with less reading will not enhance your writing ability, but reading more will generate better writing production so, neva under estimate reading.

back to the movie,

all i can say is patience and brain Do matter!! 

nevertheless, finding a personal space in this cyber sphere could liberate some pain and anger from within.

in a classroom

The students are juggling with their practises on guessing vocabularies. i do understand that it is like  bulging burden for them doing such tasks.

however, my students are wonderful,

they are really cooperative during my sessions though no matter tired they are, they just could do whatever i assign them to.

Mr xxxxxxxxx and an obsessed woman

my friend Mrxxxxxxxx    is my colleague and he usually teaches his students without complaining, well yah there is time for him interrupting but so far he has been so cooperative until one day he could not take it any more. a student of his seemed has “tresspassed” the line between teacher and student. in fact that female student becomes the stalker, always sending him messages indicating that she is absolutely interested to her teacher.

 well,

turned out that Mr.xxx    is a timid person, decent and so perfecsionist who undoubtedly will refute such approach. so he made up lots of reasons and excuses for not teaching her anymore.

she just cannot take all da excuses that she fought and fought to get what she believed to be her “rights” though the management “gave ” her another teacher who is deadly handsome, and she was cool for some moment only to burn her fire again, “yelling” at everyone in my office mocking us as if we were treating her unfairly.

hee hee hee heee, such silly thing can happen so i just enjoy this “show”, she sent pages of letters to Mr xxxx pointing that he was so selfish and he should have accepted any student who wants to learn from him. but by sending seducing sms es? heee heee heee i dont think so.

and the fight goes on……………………………..

this obsessed woman cannot let go off her “prey”, and Mr xxxxxxx even becomes more and more frigthened.

it’s natural i think.

just like in nature, men after women, and though it is not that ‘usual’ in indonesia, women now can freely after the men.

just enjoy the show and see what it will be like at the end.

What the H***** are They thinkin’ about

i wonder why Malaysian Government never think that what they have done to Indonesia for the last 5-10 years could jeopardize the two countries mutual relation intertwined for years.

starting from claiming Batik (indonesian traditional cloth) as their own local clothing, thus claiming the rights to produce it to stealing folk song of Indonesia; rasa sayange.

so they THOUGHT rasa sayange belongs to them? it couldnt be more ridiculous than this. from the pronunciation, dialect, Maluku -from which this song came– is pole apart from malaysia. i meant, no single bit is the similarity. they should be ashamed!

then indonesian peoples might think that their government should have done something to protect the countries’ resources, i couldnt agree more, but phu—leeezzzz should we register EVERY bit of indonesia’s wealth? it is the Thief that should be mannered /taught.

it is probably because Malaysia could not confide in their own cultural resources that hopelessly steal its neighbour’s. what was in their mind? do they think that they are better than indonesia?  no matter how intelligent and rich, they are nobody but a lame thief. A respected and civilized country should have not done this painstaking conduct. it hurt and unrates other people. so far from being dignified country.

pursuit of happYness

Lately, after buying that machine i have a soft spot for  watching movie. just now i finish watching the one entitled pursuit of HappYness, based on true story of the unbelievably succesful stock broker who once was a homeless, juggling with his life with the only son who was just 5 years old.

Why Thomas Jefferson mentioned something about  pursuit of happiness in the declaration, probably because we must run to reach the happiness or it might never exist. absolutely the lattest idea steming from pessimistic person. however we might be bothered as the definition of happines in our mind could be influenced by the ‘definition’ and the ‘criteria’ of happiness of somebody around.

thus, are we possibly trapped by other people’s dream of happiness??

but the movie with Will Smith intelligently acting as the main character underlines that the happiness he and his son pursue is actually the very basic kind of happiness; decent home base and meal though he eventually end up as a new tycoon.

seeing this movie, though it is based on the very real story could make me think that life is full of magical events. for a while we must live with the ‘burden’ till we could discover the key to later on open the multi-layered doors of happiness.

ridiculously, though umpteenth of time i watch ‘inspiring’ movies, i once was moved and after that earth calling; go back as lazy bone …again.

well, at least i should remember this from da movie:

if you want something, you run for it. period.

Libur Telah Usai

whoaaah, finally liburanku telah selesai.

bener-bener menikmati liburan yang 2 minggu full itu deh, i barely did nothing but sleeping, eating, reading my novels, watching movies, exploring malls sometimes, eating out, and go back to my dream land, sleeping lagi. buset dah kayaknya ukuran pinggang dah molor2 gitu deh.

oh seandainya daku punya banyak waktu libur pasti it would so much fun for me and my mommy secara kalau hari biasa tuh rumah fungsinya cuman dua, tempat mandi dan tidur dimalam hari, i am in the middle of nowhere every single day.

i luv holidays, i think i am fresher now, ready to get the ball rolling!!!

ORHAN PAMUK

i just finish reading novel written by Orhan Pamuk entitled; My name is Red, or in original language it is benim Kirmizi.

this novel is awsome, it has many characters and the writer told the story from each character’s feeling and point of view. thus, do not imagine that you will read the whole story as if someone detached from it knew everything and told u the story. it is like we are talking to each character as the characters  are TALKING to us.

‘My name is Red”, won the noble prize for literature in 2006 . the topic alone is unique and attracting; it was about assassination of Sultan’s illustrators in Turky done by one of them who was afraid of the foreign influence over their original arts and literatures. the details are there. It is illustrating how western and eastern culture collided and took its innocent tolls.

yet, it needs patience to read this thick novel as it is very thick and also demands us to think, to digest any clue leading to revealing the murder. besides, inside the main story you will read many other parables which i am sure i am not familiar with.

and another good news is that the writer is a bold man ! :))) hip hip hurray, hee  hee hee hee  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Orhan_Pamuk

gw mau ngefanz ma dia ah

peradaban modern

having read a book written by Larry Gornick I understand that the ‘modern’ civilization is built through a -never-ending war, pathetic but true. starting from Inca being colonized and ‘rapped’ by Spain to indonesia vs netherland.

the way the modern civilization is made is somehow ironical as modern civilization should have been carried out by modern people who should have chosen more human methods inducing the modernity. some wars wich still appear till now i think could be seen as the prolonged wars or the continuation of the old-age wars, thus sometimes the reason lies behind the wars is similar to the ancient wars, only probably it is neatly hidden.

then if the reasons are just the same as the ancient’s i wonder if the wars could ever be stopped?

met lebaran

taqobalallaahu minna wa minkum, taqobbal yaa Kariim

BERKATA DENGAN BAIK

Berkata dengan baik atau diam.

easy to say, hard to do

Why only few women become leader?

Why only few women become a leader?  

This question stings me lately, most probably triggered by an article of my subscribed paper.

Anyway, indeed this one is a good question, why only few women become a leader despite their feminine traits, motherly personal touch, and intelligence!! Why?

I would presume it stems from two basic sources; external and internal ones. Thousands of reasons impede women to be a leader such as patriarchal culture seeing woman is weaker than man both in physical and mental area.

My view; it MIGHT be true, in fact, women live much longer than men in addition to having ability to conceive and deliver baby which needs massive energy and strong muscles (imagine that you need to bring your infant inside your body for 9 months, whenever and wherever u go).

women also have their period regularly that slowly decrease their calcium mass of their bones; probably this explains why they mostly suffered from osteoporosis.  

This cultural view results in many effects, a woman then should be overly protected as she is too weak to protect herself; then, a woman is not encouraged to be a leader as she herself cannot afford to control her own emotion – moreover her men later on. 

 Nevertheless, what woman should bother instead of the external view is actually ‘the nature’ of woman. Well, it may sound weird as the nature of someone could not be easily modified, but once she could realize that ‘something wrong’ is ingrained in her mind, it would be easier for her to change the attitude and her self perception.

 Let me make it clear,Many women that I meet, truly look great and indeed they are REALLY great. They have brain, knowledge, individual uniqueness, talents, and such. They REALLY HAVE them all. Yet, when I assign them to do something which is CHALLENGING, most of them perceive it as TOO DIFFICULT TO DO; they will come up with both Reasons plus Excuses ( the latter occur a lot) and only a few end up as survivors. Another conclusion; they are not risk taker which is of importance to be a leader.

To make it worse, they will constantly see themselves as the persons who are incapable of doing something, of doing particular job; forever owing the feeling of being incapable. I wonder why they could keep that kinda feelin’ forever? Why not changing their mind? Why not making self suggestion that they CAN do EVERYTHING they want? Or why not TRYING to be a more capable human resource? There is not any reason of ‘feeling’ incapable.

Another conclusion; those women need a little bit more bravery.  Someone told me –which I hold it dear- that If you are able to take care of small things, then you will be ready for something bigger. So, if a woman refuses to do a job which is actually not as complicated and difficult as she may have thought, only because she is afraid of failure, then for real she is not ready or she will not be ready for doing something bigger; being a leader. 

 So I thought.    

‘WONDER FOOD’

 ‘WONDER FOOD’ 

Eating should have been my middle name, given to the fact that I find it so entertaining to use my leisure time exploring some food stalls in my town.

 When I stayed in Solo for my high school years Tumpang had been the curry that I fall for. It consists of boiled vegetables stirred with sauce made of crushed ‘tempe’, coconut milk and other ingredients. What made me startled was that this food used also flower as the main ingredient. The flower which looks like tulip is also boiled and comes together with other vegetables. And when I ate that for the first time I felt like a shaman who eats weird food in order to gain his magical power as I eat Flowers. ……yuck!…and yummy..then .  

And when I moved to Yogya, I do not meet Tumpang very often in my dining room, in fact, I love to taste Gorengan (dryly fried food) a lot. It is snack; people in Indonesia mostly munch on gorengan anytime and anywhere, and surprisingly in any event. Here, it is amusing to find out that Steel Concrete (Balok) is another name of fried cassava, Molen ( a huge machine which has elliptical shape that rolls when it works) is an alias of fried snack made of a tiny slice of banana rolled by wheat flour molded physically like molen (only of course much smaller).

And not forget; Cat Rice; Nasi Kucing;! It’s not rice meant for feeding a cat, but very tiny little cooked rice with a little side dish (mostly is only minced chilly) on the top and is wrapped by banana leaves.  So small portion that will not satisfy your hunger explaining why people in Yogya call it cat rice.  And do you know what kind of food called  SUBMARINE ( kapal selam)? It is fried wheat with yolk inside, comes with salty sauce.     So imagine, how strong you are that you could eat Submarine, Steel Concrete and

About weblog

i’ve been using this blog for almost 4 months now. somehow it helps me to voice my ideas or feeling. though i consider my blog as private one i think i like to make it as sphere to discuss something that i can question.

but what bothers me sometimes is that some bloggers like to copy and paste the articles on internet, once i visited a blog which had good articles and spured many readers to give commentaries. nevertheless when i took a  look at the article, it was just copy-paste articles. then i was tempted to do so, then i did it. some commentaries indeed came but my heart was a little sink. i dont wanna do that again, it was just like stealing someone’s writing though i did not mean to give impression as if it were my writing ( i put the source), still it is not ethical.

i still keep the article though, only to remind me not to do that again.

i do understand that there is not any ‘original’ idea or whatsoever as we are influenced by other people, but at least we could respect other’s