i read once that an illness even can be discovered if one always notes down the symptoms that he encounter most of the time. and one can be healthier mentally if he can express whatever cross in his mind and feeling through writing (as one of the tools)….(why do I suddenly remember the Freudian theory that freedom is a must for one’s growth)

and…

teachers ….this is the time for you to not only talking about how important to write is. rather, give evidence…….show that you eager to write….besides..being a teacher means that you need to be a role model right?

ideology enables people to think clearly and in argumentative way instead of talking emotionally. think of demonstrants who never learn about any ideology, chances are they will end up with blank slogan which only them and God know the hidden meaning. so let them talk two.

i wonder why we dont educate ourselves and our young people with ideology. it can fight againts narrow mindness, ignorance or even hedonism because there you can find philosophical thought which makes people become more mature.

compared to the young restless intelectual Hok-Gie, I feel ashamed of my deliberate ignorance toward my people.

I mean, I am also intellectual, I am part of the few selected people who can have education at university, yet, all I have done only caring about my future life, carreer and such money savings.
cannot I just lend my mind to think of others?

and here comes the book, thank you for enlightening my life, never too late to change and to ponder before saying goodbye to this worldly life.

as seen from the sincere and deep condolences that his fans show in the funeral ceremony, Michael trully is a person who has transferred love; the ultimate positive energy to many people in the world.  He ain’t my brother nor my acquintance but when he left, my heart sank quite deeply. that my friend, is more than because of the magic of his songs but his very honesty and sincerity touch our heart from the very inside.

he shares the good things of his life.

that’s what I should learn from him. He shares the good things in his life.

and I do believe everyone of us could do the same. we dont have to be as billionaire as he is, just see around and try to not hurting people in your surrounding by the small things of yours; body language, words, even mind.

MJ may be had never taught that he has been dearly loved by million of people.

his caring and compassion makes him more human.

 tak ada yang lebih tabah dari hujan bulan Juni dirahasiakannya rintik rindunya kepada pohon berbunga itu

tak ada yang lebih bijak dari hujan bulan Juni dihapusnya jejak-jejak kakinya yang ragu-ragu di jalan itu

tak ada yang lebih arif dari hujan bulan Juni dibiarkannya yang tak terucapkan diserap akar pohon bunga itu

eyang sapadi, pinjem puisinya yah untuk seseorang yang sudah duluan pulang, meninggalkan banyak airmata haru, rindu dan kebanggaan karena pernah memilki cintanya……….

THINK OF THESE TWO FACTS:

our heart (jantung) should work much much harder as it should pump the blood circulating the entire parts which need it.

many illnesses really stem from your body weight. even it can give woman a mioma, well of course when it combined with bad life styles.

well, keeping your body in a pretty good shape will give u pretty benefits….

I have endometriosis with me.

what is that?

is a medical condition in which endometrial cell is deposited in areas outside the uterine cavity.  it causes pain a lot ,I can have a baby but, difficult.

the cause?

many theories surrounding this illness: alergic, reflux of the menarche blood, etc.

who can suffer from it?

any woman especially those who have not delivered baby after 30 years old.

lots of the patients are career women who delay their pregnancy ( God, You know, i did not delay anything here, am not just married yet…….:(……:)   )

well,

it’s big news for me, I know what I am facing here, I have read lots of articles about it and i am just preparing for everything in my life, which would not be the same any more, hm hm, never be the same.

recently i had excruciating painful, sometimes so hurt that I just want to lay down my body and not do anything. this illness might not kill me but somehow it can bound the internal organ of the body severely, and yup, that pain is really annoying.

then,

here comes tomato, the magic fruit that can slow down the growth of endometriosis. i consume it almost everyday, the juice without sugar. the pain is still there.

lately I decided to work out, i buy treadmill and give myself time to exercise. i can say amazingly the pain is gone now, and the tomato juice is still my best friend.

my doctor said: “you still can have baby with that”

the fact: endometriosis can gimme difficulties to bear any offspring.

so what I must do now actually is to find out what stadium of my illness is.

i raise my hands to you God, may you bless me with miracless and with the easy ways, amen